today, grandma left us...
it was just a matter of days.
cny wasnt exactly happy for us.
i remember
you were begging us to put you to slp on the eve.
fuck.i couldnt control my tears.
you even gave us an angbaos even though you were on ur dying bed.
i was happy, that i managed to feed you ur last 'meal' , and mom and I was the last person you saw before you slipped into a coma and never woke up.
i was happy that mom was the one beside you when you took ur last breath.
why i didnt want to accompany you, because
I knew that the closer i am to you, the more painful it is for me when you left.
oh well.you still left us.
i am tearing when i am typing all these
fuck
what a loser
