Has been long since i spent my saturdays at home.
These few days, the singapore's weather is exceptionally weird.
These morning I was driving to sch, the sun was so hot, until i could see those waves on the roads.
Hours later, it began to pour madly.

I was surfing youtube.
Found something very amusing.
They even have videos, teaching you how to kiss passionatly?
well..I didn't know such videos exist there.

Life's rather mundane these few days.
I feel like I am wasting my life away all of a suddenly.
After listening to germ's heart pumping, mind blowing life.
I seriously think mine is nothin compared to hers.
HAHA~!
Oh well, except that I was trying to do some Inital D stunts when I was driving this afternoon
Remember the scene where jay chou's dad asked him to drive, making sure that no one drip of water should spill out of the cup filled with water up to the brim?
The only difference was that mine was a TEH PHENG, hung up (erm was 3/4 full).
well, my teh pheng reached home safely, after those U turns and humps.
Not bad hur?well..consider me, a female driver.haha!:)

Here is the school song that i can even remember, even up to now.

Here we are at school to study and to play
To meet our friends and work and do our part
We speak English, Chinese, Tamil and Malay
We are really one at heart.
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Chorus:
River Valley, River Valley
River Valley Primary School
River Valley, River Valley
River Valley Primary School
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Let us show our respect to the teachers all
Learn of friends and people living far and near
We will do right and not let our motto fail
Oh the future is so clear

It's a lousy song,
but it was a song, filled with childhood memories.
hahaha!
It was the time where there isn't backstabbers, where one didn't know what hatred is.
Pure innocence.
Frankly speaking, I can't remember how to sing or even the melody of my secondary school' school song.
yes, I am definitely not proud to be in my secondary school. Other than the friends I made and netball, I hated other aspects of it. The systems, the higher authorities and the way those higher ones work.
Are results everything?
Wasn't the process more important?

Was talking to xl about sports.
How much we want to play sport.
Basketball, Netball, Cross country races, Rock climbing,
I miss those sports I played or did.
Well, xl better return soon, or I will go without her.

this little tuition kid of mine,
steals, raps to vulgarities, skips schoool, talks about sex, have numerous girlfriends
He is only 12yrs old.
But,he is so sweet.
He is good in drawing, so he drew a picture for me.
He shares his favourite food with me when I am hungry.
He doesn't do my homework, but whenever there is school work he doesn't knows, he would ask me to go down on non tuition days to teach him, even if I am available at 11p.m, he would not mind having me go to his house at such weird timings.
and ytd, asked me if i need company back home in his little bicycle.
He would call on tuition days or sometimes any random days, to talk rubbish with me.
But ultimately, his main motive is to ask me to get him food.

He is more like a friend than my student.
He is so like my friend, and it is because of this, which makes me want to teach him.
He brings me back to my memories in primary school.
The things I overlooked then, I was able to see it now.
The things I didn't cherish then, I was able to cherish it now.
The things I didn't do then, I was able to compensate it now.
It kinds of comforts me.

Pretty impressed with this kid too. He gt really good grades for his prelims.

Luckily, I had this kid for I would go home and feel miserable, after pissing my friend off that evening.

I am sorry friend. I was kidding.
well, if you felt irritated, I am sorry.

Weekends started off rather well, other then the fact that my gd friend went off to japan in the wee hours.
Sat was well spent hanging out with friends, well, now i know how xxl feels.
Saturdays won't be saturdays without hanging out with them.
Tuition's cancelled on sunday, sleeping late and waking up in the afternoon with the rain, enjoying a bowl of hot maggi mee, not doing anything is definitely a luxury, at least for now.
Love-hate relationship with the rain.
The weather makes it so comfortable(provided you are at home),
till it dampens my mood(some people, in other words, calls it 'emoing')

Well, seems like the olympics drives people abit crazy now.
Lazy bums are getting their asses off to the gyms.
Me?yes. I have officially committed myself to a thrice a week exercise sessions.
Other then dance, i haven been exercising, other then using my hands to type.
For the past 3 months, i have been sticking my butt to the chair and popping MnMs into my mouth.

Dance
Congrats, my friends.
I love them all.

Went out with my poly friends on saturday.
It was a disasterous outing, but also a sweet one.

Well..
let me rant
DANCE

Frankly speaking, looking at my mates, going through so much in the process of the competition,
i kind of envy them. At the end of the day, they are the ones that learn the most, grow the most and ultimately bond the most.
But, i guess i am afraid. Afraid of what?I don't know myself either. Afraid that i have so many commitments and i can handle it well?maybe.
I want so many things at one time, but i know i can't manage it well.
I haven had a break since i started work.
But it's not as if i don't get my 7 hours of sleep daily.
I just not satisfied on how i spent my remaining hours besides sleeping hours.
May i would be better off studying then working.
Flexible hours, Learning new things, Able to dance
I feel so constrainted sometimes.
I need 25 hours a day.26 would be better

I seem to have mental disability to understand people and comprehend their actions.
Why are human relationships so complicated?

I dreamt of this friend of mine.
In this dream, was me, telling myself in my heart that how good my life would be if he is gone.
and suddenly, this accident happened.
he left me in a car accident like that
I was weeping like nobody's business in fornt of my friends.
Weeping in my dreams.

That dream seems so real.
When i woke up this morning, I could remember the dream so, very clearly.
What kind of car he was driving, What happened to the car, so on.

Have you ever had such dreams?
Such horrible dreams that when you wake up the next day,
you, feeling so terrible and traumatised.
And the whole day, you would be walking around like a zombie, a blank face with blank expression.
You seem to be in a state of shock.
I have had it quite a number of times.
Especially to the people so close to my heart.

Suddenly, i wanted to msg this guy friend of mine.
It has been sometime since we have contacted.
To ask him how he has been,
But I already, don't have his number.

The sight, the sound, the smell of you haunts me...
I don't know why i am so scared.
I am scared to go home alone now.
Scared that you would just stalk me
Or even appear at my estate.
I am so scared to see him.
I don't know why.
It's the 7th month and i know i shldn't say such things...
Is he even called a friend?

Seems like i need to do something about the pmses.

I was rather rude to James the other day.telling him it was so redundant to call friends that don't even appear evening after the 4th year of asking if he/she wants to go out.
I guess, the pmses came at the utmost wrong time.
I was rather pissed off with another friend which replied a 'No' plus a nice fullstop at the end. I was rather pissed off with another friend asking me to msg her instead of calling her. I was also pissed off when another friend kept calling and calling me, keep asking me to go out, when in fact i asked her first but i backed out. I was even more pissed with those damn ants which at my MnMs. I didnt realise until like after eating 30 of them?I was literally eating ants with MnMs.

Maybe this week's work load was rather, shld i say mountanious?
All in all, I KNOW that i am being difficult and a bitch.
DAMN. I can't seem to have control over my body when i get those pmses.
I always feel so drained.
I am sorry friends.

On a lighter note, the 8 million TOTO draw is here.
With that bird shit which landed nicely in the middle of my head, my aunt's visit, plus beginner's luck..I am thinking seriously if i should give up this virgin TOTO draw of mine.