i am tired
and i know i should be
i am trying to balance everything now.
every single thing,
my life, dance, feelings, work, family

suddenly, i feel the load on me to be a pillar for my family.
i have yet to fall.
whenever i felt like things were hard, i thought of the people in Sichuan,
at least, i have a family, and a grandmother whom i love.
at least, after work, i know that they will be at home nagging at me.
at least, i have hands and legs to be able to dance
at least, i know that i have friends that are there to hear me.
i do not know what happens if i don have those.

please, hope that nothin happens to mom.
hope that she can be happier.

and hope, sichuan recovers

damn it..
this is so damn retarded
i am so pissed
transportation fees are sky high
and damn is the public transport so cocked up
buses are so slow and not frequent
trains are like shit too
and human are to blame.
those bluddy working class..
i wonder if they are blind or brainless
haven't they read so many posters, there are so many zillion or them around...!!!
PLEASE MOVE TO THE MIDDLE OR REAR...BLIND OR WAT!!!???
if they could move, more people will be able to reach their destinations earlier..!!
worst still!!!wat's the use of increasing the number of gantries in singapore?
HUH?WATS THE USE??YOU TELL ME LA!!!!
so many freaking gantries and the jams are still there, making it worst, the buses and trains are so not frequent and the fares just keep going up.
and mind you, food prices are too.
those fugly hawkers are taking full advantage of it.
increasing their prices so senselessly
THE END
THANK YOU

please, smile.

don give me another chance to do it again.
i donnoe what i will do this time
but i know i will regret it

i know, not to take those words so seriously
i know, not to read too much out of those words
i know, to protect myself
i know, we are friends
i know, i am always happy when i know u are happy
and i know, i am silly and stupid

i know, i know all of those things
but when it comes to you, those 'i know's became useless

i aint talking about a specific person, it's about life.
though the 1st para is.
feels like the trust i had once placed were slowly falling apart.
it was and is my fault. it wasnt anyone's.