contradictory to what my friend was saying about my life
'Ur life is full of activities, work, dance, frens....'
i was sulking and complaining to my other fren on msn how work here is so boring...
as usual. there are ups and downs in life.
Last week was a well deserved break.
After that fucked up week i had.

Yesterday's meet up with poly friends were great. Had a hell lot of time laughing at their ever exciting sex life. Feels totally like live porn.

and yes! i gt my long awaited rest.
4 days and it's extendable!HAHA!
Yesterday was my first time having sitches.
I still have phobia for it.

So indeed, the truth hurts.
but life continues...

Germs once said to me: 'You are dope shit!'
i think i am.HAHA!

everything is in a mess.
the things i once had, seems so distant.
today,
i took a 11 yrs friendship to a bet
i am tired of hiding.
i am tired of acting 'like i don't care'.
though i have yet to know the result of the bet,
at least, i know i am of wat importance to you.
today, you thought me that friendship was a diffcult one to built,
but i still didn't really care.
indeed the bet was a heavy one,
something that i once held on so dearly and
that i don't even know now if i am ready to lose.
but, that feeling of uncertainty and those unsure'ness', definitely kills.

this week has been rough.
too many downs
too many thoughts
i need to rest.

我尽量不去怀念
反正都遥远多美的画面
都是昨天其实最好别碰面
问候都避免朋友的界限
太难拿捏我不懂如何敷衍
假装已事过境迁这角色该怎么演
* 非常抱歉
并不想知道你生活的细节
我的感觉永远不会成为你的感觉非常抱歉
离开你我打算更彻底一些需要时间
慢慢复原练习如何去遮掩 对你的感觉

by Andrew Tan
Nice song:)

I am still living in the past.

You are the one thing that i always, have been regretting.
You always lie, to make me happy
And once,u told me the truth and made my heart sink to the bottom
I can't accept the fact that things are so coincidental.
Or maybe, I am thinking too much.
Move away Bei fang, Move away..~~~

a new born arrives, with another death of a living person.
this is part of the life cycle which we didn't learn in primary school.